God Loves You
While I was
in jail in 1988, I lost custody of my children. This was one of the most heart
breaking things I have had to endure. After I was born again, I still had
multiple problems compounded because of all the years I ran from God.
I wanted to rebuild my relationship with my ex-wife and children but my letters
came back "refused" or "return to sender." It was my fault.
For many months I was not allowed to see them and had surrendered my rights and
liberties to committ to a year at a Drug Rehab for men. They were very young so
I thought that my children would think that I don't love them anymore. Or worse
they would think that it was their fault that Daddy had left. "I'm bad so
daddy left me."
So I prayed and asked God to send someone to tell my children that I love them.
I wanted them to know that I wanted to be there but could not. God did not
answer. My heart broke into little bitty shattered fragments
Jesus said in
John 6:12, "Gather up the fragments that remain so nothing will be lost." He
was talking about fish and loaves but it also applies to our lives. Let nothing
be lost. We can't let all of our pains, sufferings, losses and scars go to
waste. Bring the fragments of your life to Jesus and let Him put them back
together. Then give them away for someone else's benefit. Comfort others with
the same comfort that you've been comforted with.
God
eventually began restoring my relationship with my children, but it was several
years before He spoke concerning my prayers. One day I wasn't thinking about
anything in particular when suddenly God said, "Son, now you know how I feel." "I
have many children out in the world who think that I don't love them anymore." "Some
think it is their fault and they have been too bad for Me to forgive and accept
them."
Then God said
back to me the prayer I had prayed so many times before, "I wish I could get
some body to go and tell my children that I love them." That I care about them
and I have plans to give them hope and a future. It cost me internal scars to
bring these words to you.
So I give
this message to you, the reader of these words. Please take a minute to receive
it. God loves you. He loves you more than you love your own child. The blood of
Jesus cleanses every sin and stain. God can't bear to look on sin. He sees the
good in you. Genesis 1:4 says "God saw the light and it was good." It does not
say, God saw the darkness and it was bad.
God wants
your total surrender to Jesus Christ so He can protect, love on, heal you and
much more. Yes, there will be battles, attacks, persecution and trials but He
will be with you. Have you had a rough time of it? God is not looking for
certificates that you hang on your wall; He is looking for scars in your heart.
Many years
ago I gave my children back to God. There were times that I wanted to help God
out but I was admonished by the Lord. The Holy Spirit said, "If you want to
take over with these boys then I'll let you." I quickly repented and
surrendered them back to Him. He has done an exceedingly better job than I
could ask or think of. Thank you, Lord! Don't just bring your problems to God;
give Him your life.
Will, is 24,
has established his own residence and works at a hospital and pays his way
through college. His goal is sports medicine. Here he is in his new BMW 6
series that he bought by himself. God did all this.

Bryan is 21 and is a senior at Troy State University. He got there on a
scholarship as a music major. He is the worship leader at his church and is a
prolific singer / songwriter. God did a great job with both of them.